I grew
up in silence.
Emotions
were never been much shown.
Everything
was kept along within the shadows
Where
only myself could know.
Happiness
was never shared.
But only
to myself who were always within reach.
Sadness
was never shared
Because
I grew up living distant to others.
I watch
time passes by,
But only
with myself who were always within reach.
Because
before was imprinted to my mind,
Others
were can never be trusted.
Such
ideology ruined the childhood.
Now
looking for things I should already have beforehand.
The centrepiece
of my life had become an introverted path.
It is
being struggled to be changed.
My only
wish is to be happy.
I don't
want to waste every second engaged to sadness.
Changing
myself is determined.
Bringing
my old happy self is pushed.
If only
I could reset time,
I will
think and do what are in bliss.
Things
that are good and happy,
The
challenge that I accept.
How I
wish I could enjoy,
Every
good moments with everyone in my life.
Not
thinking the pain
In which
I was mostly devoured before.
An
emotional pain lurked in me.
That
pain that reaped my life
Which
now I can't show the best side,
Today is
hiding in the shadows of silence.
Nobody
can understand the pain
That I
very eager to treat.
All I
need now to forget the pain.
Accept
everything and only remember everything is good.
I want
show to everybody myself that was never seen.
My eyes
that sees good,
My lips
that speaks kindness.
I want
everybody to feel the good that is within me.
I now
will not be afraid to show the good that is in me.
I will
let everybody feel being with me is a time not wasted.
I will
never look on bad.
I will
never speak of rudeness.
Everything
will be changed.
I will
enter to the new pace.
Everything
will be in beautiful,
Including
the beauty of myself which I never seen then.
I will
say goodbye to the face darkness.
Myself
will fade away from the shadows of darkness.
I will
embark to see my whole new self,
Blissful
and thankful.
I am now
fading away, my old self.
I am
setting you free to be cleansed awhole.
I am now
making place to the new self.
Good bye
to you, good bye.