What Should I Prioritize?

I'm pretty in the bug these days. I'm always bothered of what things should I do for the mean time. I always have plenty of things to do. I need to do this, I need to do that. Yet... This is giving me a hard time. I don't even enjoy things anymore since that I was bothered of those things to do. So for me to enjoy things again, I just need to choose what things to prioritize. With this prioritization, I must apply self-discipline to do things which are really important and be not bothered by things which ruin the focus of doing the certain thing.

Feeling Empty

It's supposed to be aHappy Valentine's Day. But somehow after I wake up, I'm feeling so empty. Really empty. But I don't know what makes me feel like this. I'm wondering if myself being a grouchy girl lending a factor with this. I don't know.

I hope today, someone will give me a cheer to have a Happy Valentine's Day.

I Slam Dunked!

I failed! Epic fail! I made a slam dunk... On the floor. LOL!

I was walking home eating my steamed beef then I heard the phone ringing. So I hasted then after entering the kitchen, I slipped and fall on the ground. That was an epic pain and epic fail.

A Day to Work for Web Site Designing

Today, I'm just staying at home to make developments on web site designing for RF Legends. Right now. I'm working with the flash header navigation bar for the website. Since that I'm still lacking of knowledge of about flash, I'm watching and reading flash online video tutorials to get things what I need to know. I already created the image layout in Photoshop, what I need now is to apply some functions for the navigation buttons to work.

I actually kinda feel lazy and apparently losing my focus while doing this. I need pastries or cold sweet drink for me keep on going.

I hope I could make drastic developments for today.

I'm Missing It

At this moment, I'm urging to do again plenty of things. Things like anime sketching, karate, watching anime and painting.

Earlier, I looked on to the sky. I again felt the beauty of life. I told myself "just like that plane, I will soar high. I will reach my goals with flying colors." I realized that it is better to be at home than to work. I wanna watch anime, I wanna listen to music, I wanna play the piano, I wanna play flute, I do karate, I wanna be a black belter. I wanna sing with all my heart, I wanna nurture plants, I wanna spend time with pets, I wanna draw and paint, I wanna learn more about web development, photoshop, flash and more. I wanna be a polygot and much more to mention.

I have plenty of dreams that are being deluded by my negative emotions. I gave up, I lost it all. Now, I'm wanting it back. I'm now doing my best to do those again,which will again resemble my true character. I'm gonna bring back the self-esteem that I lost and I will be on track again.

I missed being me. Now... I'm regenerating again. I'm awakening my chara.

3 Things for Today's Disappointment

My 3 things for today's disappointment:

• My BF

My parents are telling me and giving me lectures about my BF since we have different social standards in terms of financial stability.They were telling me things that they are seeing with my boyfriend. They observe that he was not like doing anything to get something for him to earn an income and they think that he will not be an ideal husband for me, which will make me the family's breadwinner instead of him. But, I want and I don't want to believe on them. Since that they don't know much of his story and how he think and act. I believe that he is just waiting for the time and chance for him to do the must. But since time runs past and can never be back, he should be doing things immediately. I don't know. I just don't wanna leave him because I love him the more than I expected before. But I don't know if he is still loving me like the way before so that's why I wanna believe my parents. I know they want the best for me. But I can't just follow them like. Who's knows? They might wrong. So I'll just have to make proper measures and decisions about this.

• My mom

She's just so hot headed. As always... Even a simple thing makes her mad so bad. I know she's tired or something that me and my sisters must understand but being mad will lead her nowhere and somehow can lead her to worse. So she better make an anger management.

• My opportunity for an income

I told my parents about the online English tutorial that my neighbor was offering me before. I told them that I talked with this online English teacher, who handles this tutorial thing, and she's giving me 50% discount on the training and told me that it is 200php per hour of tutorial to my students. It was a nice income than my previous part time job. But my dad told me that it would be a scam since it is just online. But my dad don't know much of the internet than I am. I know which are fraud or not. Then he made the declining of my grades as a reason for not allowing me after I explained that I know the internet frauds since that I'm more internet oriented than my dad. If that's the reason, he should have pointed it out since I was in 1st year or 2nd year of my college.

Anyways... I'm now quite calmed down since that I got some sleep a while ago. Now I have to deal on somethings for my project proposal.

Can't Think and Can't Decide

I am supposed to be studying for my C++ exam later this afternoon but I'm enormously feel lazy at this moment. Yet thinking of doing things like Photoshop stuff, reading tutorials on web development, photoshop and aftereffects. Well... Hopefully I could start something now than ending up my day doing nothing.

Midnight Shift

I'm supposed to be sleeping at this time but... I need to research for this laptop repair scheme. Well... I need to learn this, tho. Another source of income. Well... Good thing I don't class in the afternoon, I can get my sleep in the afternoon...