bLizZ for Today (02-05-09)

1. I'm going to write songs again.
2. I'll work harder to attain my goals.
3. I'm regaining my strength again.
4. Happy because my je t'aime texted me.
5. Feeling great when listening to Olivia Lufkin's songs.
6. Realized that my classmates still there for me even though I'm making distance from them.
   

Starting to Give Up

This day, I'm being diluted with the frustrations, stress and griefs. Also, there are somethings that
popping out in my head which I wanted to do. But with these school work, which are totally frustrating, I feel like being trapped in a room pushing walls which are impossible to be moved.

I was thinking to fail some of my subjects like what my schoolmate did before because of his frustration. But if I do that, I'm just some kind of quitter and I also gave up my will to the goal.

But, this is killing me. The thing that I want to enjoy life without worries bothers me a lot. I want self-development. But taking time to enjoy first than to do some on-the-deadline stuffs stresses me. If ignore those on-the-deadline stuffs, I will be on height of tension. Especially since I am on to enjoy life as I want it to be. I want to do things that I really wanted to do, which are part of my the edge of danger about my school stuff.

I know what to do. But it feels like, my body is splitting into two.

(*whew)This is only a challenge I need to pass. But how long will I keep standing?

bLizZ for today (02-05-09)

1. I cut my hair for few bangs and it goes well.
   
2. Finished my midterm exams for Circuits 2.
3. "Going to school early, listening to discussion and study after every lecture makes a student excel."
4. Olivia Lufkin is my new inspiration.
5. I feel ready to the new me.
6. What ever happens, SMILE!
7. Karate a day, keep the body awake.
8. Do I truly believe in MIRACLES? I guess don't. But still, I have to found out what MIRACLE is like.
   

I Found My New Inspiration

While browsing on Nana(anime) soundtrack, I found a curiosity about the soundtracks. I got curious if who is Olivia. I wondered if Reira was inspired by this Olivia because of the artist name "OLIVIA inspi' Reira (Trapnest). Because of that, I researched it. Then I found that Olivia sung the anime soundtrack of Nana(anime).

I found her blog site. weeee.... Her blog site is so cute. An artistic attitude gives mood to her blog site. I told myself. I like her. I admire. She's my newly added inspiration for building my target personality.

Anyways... I like her music... I like her creativity... I'm inspired.

A new step added to the whole new me!

Boredom Show

When I'm bored at class, instead of sleeping, I do Boredom Show. Boredom Show is actually my classmate's idea, I just adopted their cool idea. hehe...

Well... I have here an example of my Boredom Show.

A Boredom Show can be a comic strip, animation or any drawing that you will make.

Doing this will be helpful for not sleeping in the class, to waken your senses and to improve your imagination.

Try to do this. This is fun. hehe...

Mismanagement in Me

Good morning!

I've just finished printing my Laboratory Report in Circuits I but I still lack of some data to fully complete it and I am going to complete when I arrived at school. hehe... I still have time to do it since that my Circuits I class is on 10:30am.

Anyways... Once again, I have many ideas popping out in my head. My mind telling me I wanna do this, I wanna do that. But I do all of them right now due to that I still have things to do right now. And sometimes, when I have spare time to do those things, I end up chatting with my friends, playing online games, surfing the internet or sleeping.

Well, as you can see, I have mismanagement in myself and I have no to tolerate that or I'll end up in chaos. hehe...

Anyways... I think, the best way to cease that kind of attitude is to have sched plan, budget & chores plan, self-discipline and self-control.

I must do this so that I can do all of my tasks well. hehe...

Anyways... I'm to end up my blog for now. I'm kinda hungry now and I'm going to prepare for my class later on.

Ja' mata ne!

Some Realizations

I checked my FS account earlier then I found that my old classmate, Regine E., sent me a message to add her on my friend list. Well... I add her then checked and read her profile.

First observation, she changed so much. The way she dresses, her pictures and etc... It's too different from before when were still classmates at MBMS. Second observation (based on her profile), she achieved many things, (the thing that realized me of something) she is happy with herself, she can express herself thoroughly, she is not ashamed of some of her idiosyncrasies and she gets along with anything as long as she likes it.

Well, what did I realized? I’m not that really happy with myself because I can’t truly express myself because I’m afraid that people will dislike me because some of my idiosyncrasies and due to that, I’m not really good in getting along with other people because of having misjudged. Although not true, but it still hurts. Sometimes, I rather spend time alone especially when no one approaches to be accompanied. I have this thing “ilang” when I noticed something not right or usual to me, which is a factor why I’m not good in getting along with other people.

I envy those people which the kind of personality that I have mentioned earlier. Besides Regine, my current classmates: Emcy and Andz, possess that kind of personality. But I can be like them. Some personality adjustments would be a way for that.

After doing that, I could face the world again with ease in my heart.